Paperclip Dolls: Project Monarch, MK-ULTRA and Mind Control: Articles by ANNIE MCKENNA & S M A R T (Stop Mind control And Ritual abuse Today)

I. Project Monarch, MK-ULTRA and Mind Control


Project Monarch, MK-ULTRA and Mind Control

Project Monarch, MK-ULTRA and Mind Control Healing from the Horror – Mind control survivor finds healing after the walls of amnesia come tumbling down

In 1977 when I was in my late 20s and leaving my second marriage, I decided there might be a problem with me. That’s when I began therapy and learned to deal with issues such as properly expressing anger, not being so defensive, and why I was so afraid of my father. I married my current husband (we’ve been married since 1980) and continued in therapy to help improve my relationship skills. I came very close to getting my memories back around 1990 because of a series of nightmares I had about my father.

Instead of the memories, though, I made a startling emotional discovery about myself that I thought was the answer to my fear of my father. That discovery made me think I was “cured.” In other words, I shut down and rejected further therapy. In 1996 I decided I was going to write a novel – a love story with a psychological twist. The main character was going to have my emotions and the story was going to reflect how a woman with a history of abuse in her background has to struggle to make a relationship work.

II. Project Monarch, MK-ULTRA and Mind Control (continued)


Project Monarch, MK-ULTRA and Mind Control That was supposed to be the only similarity between the book and reality. When I say abuse, at the time, I consciously only knew of the constant emotional abuse and some physical abuse I had endured from my father.

On Dec. 11, 1997, about three months after the first memory, someone in my support group sent information about Project Monarch. As soon as I read it, I knew that’s what had happened to me. I finally understood what my scrapbook images were trying to tell me. From that point on my life was totally changed. I also felt that my life had been completely shattered. I had to totally disregard my own personal belief system to accept what had happened to me.

To believe I had been a victim of mind control, to believe that my father had placed me in a program that intentionally caused a child to produce multiple personalities, to believe there were people in the world who could carry on this kind of torture to create a Manchurian Candidate in the name of national security meant giving up my belief that “all people are basically good,” meant giving up “happily ever after,” meant believing my father had sold his soul to the government and had turned over his daughter to this evil. It is truly devastating.


Basically, Project Monarch was a government/Illuminati mind control program that involved numerous military and intelligence agencies, the Paperclip Nazis, and various prominent individuals and politicians. I also believe this program (regardless of its current name) is still active.

Operation Paperclip began in 1945 and was stopped in 1957 when West Germany complained that the U.S. had robbed Germany of its “scientific skills.” It involved the U.S. ushering Nazis into the country who were valued for their knowledge of rocketry and the medical knowledge (a rather ironic term) gained from the experiments at the concentration camps.

One of the criteria for being a Nazi under Hitler’s regime was worshipping Satan. The Nazi’s didn’t leave their belief systems behind. Project Monarch was a combination of ritual abuse and mind control. The ritual abuse served two purposes. First, it exposed a child to horrific trauma which caused the child to dissociate and create alters. Secondly, the belief was that if we ever did remember, the ritual abuse memories would surface first and the medical community and public would label us insane.

I was born at Aberdeen Proving Grounds in Maryland in 1952 where my father was an instructor at the time. Aberdeen Proving Grounds is the world headquarters for U.S. Army intelligence. Aberdeen was also one of the stopover points for Paperclip Nazis. It’s not difficult to conceive that a number of Nazis remained at Aberdeen since that was also the site of Edgewood Arsenal where many of the biochemical warfare experiments were carried out.

The most insidious part of Project Monarch was that it’s objective was to create a child with multiple personalities. So not only was it devastating to learn I was a multiple, I had to absorb the shock of learning that I was intentionally made a multiple. And the only way a child will dissociate to the point of creating alters is through severe trauma.

Except for a few memories, I can’t tell you exactly how I was programmed. But I know I was taken all over the country and even overseas for programming. I was taken to military bases and high-tech research facilities including those that were part of universities. Most, if not all, of the universities I remember are ones that had received MK-Ultra funding–and that included Canada. I was taken to several locations in Canada between 1957 and 1964. I specifically have memories of Ewen Cameron and the Allan Memorial Institute. Both were implicated in a lawsuit filed by adult Canadian victims against the CIA and presented in a Canadian made-for-television documentary, In the Sleep Room. It’s interesting that the U.S. purchased the rights to the show but it was never aired in our country.

The United States has a history of covering up human experimentation. Just look at the hearings that were held regarding the Human Radiation Experiments on unwitting victims, the Tuskeegee experiments, and the Gulf War Syndrome (as well as the lesser known chem trails and AIDS atrocity). Declassified documents show our own military has released viruses over U.S. populations to see what the impact would be. Unfortunately, history also shows our government doesn’t own up to its transgressions for at least 40 to 50 years after the harm is done.

In 1977 the U.S. held Senate investigative hearings which disclosed the abuses by the government through MK-Ultra. But very few Americans even know of its existence because of media control. The cover up goes something like this. The American Psychiatric Association received funding through MK-Ultra for at least one of its projects. Ewen Cameron, who was the former head of the Quebec Psychiatric Association, the Canadian Psychiatric Association, and the World Psychiatric Association, received funding directly by the CIA through MK-Ultra, the Human Ecology Foundation which was a CIA front organization, and also through the Canadian government. So both the U.S. and Canadian psychiatric associations were involved in mind control experimentation in the 1960s.

But the U.S. government still conceals its mind control records and in fact has destroyed most if not all of its records by now. They have labeled victims of their abuse as mentally ill which shows rather directly that the U.S. abuses its psychiatric system in much the same way we accused the Soviet Union and Cuba of abusing their psychiatric systems.

And while my country continues to deny the existence of cults, they are proliferating and are nothing more than covers for pedophiles, kiddie porn activities, drug trafficking, prostitution, and a government gold mine of young minds to mold. I would say to parents, be sure you know your child’s soccer coach, scout leader, best friend’s parents, and anyone else your child admires. I know there are many good people out there, but the fact is pedophiles and those involved in the cults are usually in positions where they have access to young children.


How do you teach a child to be an assassin? It’s very easy. You use double binds and impossible choices. My first memory of this type of training was when I was three years old in Germany. I was given a hammer and was asked to smash a rat’s head. I can still hear the thick German accent telling me how ugly rats were and they deserved to die. When I wouldn’t do it, my memory flashed to the Nazi holding a bunny, petting it, saying how cute the bunny was. If I didn’t kill the rat, he was going to keep killing cute little bunnies. He then killed the bunny with the hammer to prove he wasn’t lying. I killed a rat. Then I was made to feel guilty because I could have saved the bunny if I had followed his instructions sooner. A child will kill to save another.

I graduated from animals to humans at least by the time I was in grade school. One question I keep asking myself is how many people were killed so they could train one Manchurian Candidate. This leads me to something about healing that I think is very important.

When I first began to remember what I was trained to do, I could barely deal with the guilt that I had harmed…killed other people. It was one thing that they tortured me, but it was an entirely different story that I harmed others. Spencer, my internal guide, explained to me that if I didn’t get past the guilt, I would never heal. He also explained that I had no choice. It was not my will. If given the choice–and if they had allowed me my choice–I would have taken my own life. But they didn’t allow that and the victims would have been killed regardless.

There were groups of individuals called “expendables”. They were the orphans no one would miss, children born into cults and under the mind control program that no one knew about, and prisoners–people who were their terminal medical experiments and ritual sacrifices. And I was reminded that I did save every one of them because I internalized them as alters. That’s how a child who is a multiple saves victims. The victims become alters who live on inside the child. That coping mechanism to the perps was just another way to produce alters.


Torture is a difficult word for me to use. For a long time, I just called it programming because it was easier for me to deal with. But it included electroshock both as punishment and memory erasure. Sensory deprivation is when I was placed in a box or other container without light, sound, or touch in a terrifying setting to cause dissociation. I have many memories of coffins and graves. Sometimes snakes or spiders would be placed in the container with me and I would not be allowed to move or make any noise without electrical punishment. That’s how they conditioned my alters not to be afraid. I was also drugged, sexually abused to include being used in kiddie porn and snuff films, and subjected to methods of degradation and humiliation designed to strip me of my sense of self. I recall flashing lights, being hung upside down to disorient me, having guns held to my head and hearing the click of an empty chamber, and constantly being subjected to emotional blackmail if I would ever tell of the abuse should I remember it.

How did I remember these kinds of details? By using scrapbook therapy. Because mind control victims are so heavily programmed with staying silent under threat of physical harm to themselves and others and/or told they will automatically commit suicide if they try to tell, when many survivors start to remember, they are terrified to seek help.

III. Paperclip Dolls

by Annie McKenna
Published 1999

If you are familiar with the movie Conspiracy Theory, imagine a story that goes behind the scenes to the character played by Mel Gibson (Jerry)-to his childhood as an unwitting subject in the CIA’s top secret project, MK-Ultra. PAPERCLIP DOLLS, would tell you how Jerry most likely became the paranoid adult unable to remember his past and obsessed with government conspiracies.

PAPERCLIP DOLLS might be described as a psychothriller involving covert government operations, mind control experimentation with children, Nazi scientists who were ushered clandestinely into the United States following World War II (Operation Paperclip), and a bizarre plot to develop the ultimate secret weapon, a Manchurian Candidate-a spy/assassin/courier who would not remember his or her deeds. The story, however, is nonfiction.

It’s the account of a woman who, at age 44, not only begins to remember a childhood she never knew existed, but also realizes she has multiple personalities as a result of her childhood trauma. She must learn to deal with the horrific memories while adjusting to the miraculous way her brain works and has protected her for years.

PAPERCLIP DOLLS is Annie McKenna’s story about healing from the horror of being placed into a government program known to her as Project Monarch at birth by her father who was military intelligence.

The book is her personal account as relayed through her journaling, supportive research, and other writings of exactly how her memories revealed themselves, their impact on her life, and how she was able to quickly understand and gain control of her multiplicity.

It is a story about overcoming a most insidious type of child abuse-one that was sanctioned by our own government and which was made public in the 70s. What the public didn’t know was that many of the unwitting subjects of mind control experiments, including the notorious MK-Ultra project, were children.

IV. Issue 28 – Sept. 1999

S M A R T (Stop Mind control And Ritual abuse Today)
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Issue 28 – Sept. 1999

The purpose of this newsletter is to help stop secretive organizations and groups from abusing others and to help those who allege they have been abused by the Masons, Mormons, government agencies and other secretive groups.

This newsletter is not a substitute for other ways of recovering from ritual abuse. Readers should use caution while reading this newsletter. If necessary, make sure other support systems are available during and after reading this newsletter.


The resources mentioned in this newsletter are for educational value only. Reading the books cited may or may not help your recovery process, so use caution when reading any book or contacting any resource mentioned in this newsletter. Some may have a religious or other agenda that may be separate from your own recovery process. Others may have valuable information on the Masons and other organizations, but have triggers or be somewhat sympathetic to those organizations. Resources listed, quoted and individual articles, etc. and their writers do not necessarily support all or any of the views mentioned in this newsletter. Also, the views, facts and opinions mentioned in this newsletter are solely the opinions of the authors and are not necessarily the opinions of this newsletter or its editor.

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No reproduction of any material without written permission from the editor and individual authors.

The dates for next year’s conference are August 5 and 6, 2000. Registration information will be
available at: or by writing us via E-mail or regular mail.

99 Conference presentation tapes are now available, see

Notes from Neil Brick’s presentation at the 99 conference on “Conference trigger management
and safety” are available via Email, snail mail (for $1.00 US only) or at
This article has valuable information on safety for any conference.

SRA Survivor Story

The following article was sent to us by a subscriber. Please use caution while reading. It may be triggering. All accusations are alleged.

I’m a survivor of SRA, my abuse occurred in the 1960’s in a small town. My sister got involved with two families who were into occult and satanic practices. When I went with my sister to these families, I believe I became traumatized by sexual, physical, and psychological abuse. It started when I was 5 years old, and this was the beginning of splitting and programming. At six years old, I was marked on my left hand with the cross of confusion, and the faded scar is still visible today. I won’t be going into the graphic detail of the abuse as it is too shocking and triggering.

My sister was reading Alister Crowley, had a book of rituals she borrowed from the cult, she was involved with astrology, Tarot, I Ching and seances. She showed me how to write backwards, do guided imagery, and introduced me to occult oriented rock music, such as heavy metal, like Blue Oyster Cult. She went to a little occult bookstore, where they had ritual items, and in the back had the black hooded robes. I have a total of 28 alter personalities, and there are some that were programmed by the cult. In this store, I switched to a cult alter and was asking about things such as where the robes were kept. After this, I came back outside of the store and couldn’t remember what happened.

At ages 7 and 8, I was hospitalized for psychiatric reasons, and this was because of the abuse. They said I had dissociated personality, also known as multiple. There were doctors and therapists from other states observing me and sitting in on therapy sessions. I had sessions with lost time when alters were out and tape recorded. The tape was played back to me and I heard different voices of alters. One alter was describing allegations of sexual abuse by adults and children in the woods, and I screamed at them to turn it off, and they did. They
had alters to draw pictures and sign names. This was shown to me and they said I was these children during the times I could not remember. I was afraid and confused for as an 8 year old I never heard of multiplicity. This was in 1964.

Since that one alter started to talk, another alter programmed to hurt the body came out and there was a crisis. This alter would bite my body and bang my head. As a result, I would come back to myself and find my limbs strapped down on a bed and my forearm wrapped in gauze. I asked what happened, and when they told me, I felt like I was possessed and not in control. In childhood and teens I rarely had coconsciousness and lost time when I switched. After this crisis, they didn’t push for abreactions, but just worked on functioning. I went home a multiple.

There was more SRA at ages 9 11. My sister would sneak out late at night and sometimes took me with her. We went barefoot to the woods, or to the church basement, or abandoned house for rituals. Sometimes she would get bits of dirt, leaves, and grass in her bed that mom questioned her about. She blamed it on sleepwalking.

When I was about 12 and walking in the woods with a friend, we came upon a dead tree with a noose like rope hanging from it. There were loose ropes on the ground. There was a child sized grave hole nearby, a piece of plywood big enough to cover it (like they did to me at age six), ashes from a fire, dirty underwear, soiled rag, a kid’s tee shirt and shorts. A listless garter snake found at the scene seemed injured. My friend called the police and they searched the woods, and we didn’t hear about it if they found anything else.

The last thing happened when I was a senior in high school. I was triggered on the bus just before Halloween by cult kids (from the two families). They chanted a phrase and dropped a Satanic Bible in my lap. One of them took a snip of my hair when my back was turned and said he was giving it to some kind of priest. Then they said something terrible was going to happen in a couple of weeks. Then after this, I started having nightmares panic attacks, flashbacks, overwhelming emotions and rapid switching. I had paranoia concerning demons and cult people coming after me. I voluntarily went into a psych unit at a local hospital. There I was over medicated with neuroleptics which caused swelling and body rash, stuttering, shaking, and not being able to focus my eyes. The drugs increased out of body dissociation, and dissociative panic, but did nothing for the terror, and anger. There was a teenage guy there being treated for drug abuse from my school. He triggered me with heavy metal records and talking of the hole and comparing it to the windowless seclusion room. It is like the hole because they tie you down, it’s cold and pitch dark when the light is off. An alter who was out in the hole in the woods got terrified and would not come out and vent anger out of fear of being confined in that room for punishment. I couldn’t say much in the teens’ therapy group (mostly there for drugs not PTSD) because that guy who triggered me was there. This same teen after he got out, told people about me being there, as I didn’t tell them! After graduation, we moved away.

Memories and coconsciousness began in 1998 after sexual harassment at work. Hypnosis was not used for memory retrieval. Cooperation among the alters helped release traumatic memories and feelings. I am in my 40’s and it has taken this long to get this far.

Walking Wounded

Recovered Memory Article

The following article was written by the editor.

There are now several sources on the Internet for information on the validity of the recovered memory theory and validity of the memories themselves.

These include: (the first page (.com) links to other pages of interest also) “The Validity of Recovered Memory: Decision of a US District Court” Judge Edward F. Harrington, Presentation by Jim Hopper, Ph.D. The legal documentation citation is: 923 Federal Supplement 286 (D. Mass. 1996), United States District Court District of Massachusetts Ann Shahzade, plaintiff Civil Action No.: V. 9212139EFH George Gregory, Defendant.

Some quotes from the decision:

“The factors to be considered when deciding if proffered testimony is valid ‘scientific knowledge,’ and therefore reliable, are…” (p.3)

“This Court finds that the reliability of the phenomenon of repressed memory has been established” and will allow the plaintiff to introduce evidence related to their recovered memories (p.3).

“Dr. van der Kolk testified that repressed memories is not a scientific controversy, but… a political and forensic one” (p.5).

“Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSMIV, 1994)…also recognizes the concept of repressed memories” (p.7). “in considering the admissibility of repressed memory evidence,” the court must rule on the “validity of the theory itself… for the law to reject a diagnostic category generally accepted by those who practice the art and science of psychiatry would be folly.” (p.9).

This URL has:

“Memory, Abuse, and Science: Questioning Claims about the False Memory Syndrome Epidemic” “An audiotape of this talk (audiotape No. APA9S245) may be ordered from Sound Images, Aurora, CO; telephone: 3036491811).” An adapted version was published in American Psychologist, September 1996, vol. 51, no. 9,
pages 957974

It also has archives of corroborated cases of recovered memory, some from legal proceedings, fulltext articles and abstracts on recovered memories, 22 peer reviewed studies on amnesia and child abuse, 24 publications on traumatic amnesia in Holocaust survivors, etc.

Here is some data from the peer-reviewed studies:

“The recovery of memories in clinical practice: Experiences and beliefs of British Psychological Society practitioners” Andrews, Bernice; Morton, John; Bekerian, Debra A.; Brewin, Chris R.; Davis, Graham M.; Mollon, Phil The Psychologist 1995 May, Vol. 8, pp. 209214 ” “…recovery from total amnesia of past traumatic material involving both CSA and non-CSA experiences is (not) uncommon”” … our largescale survey confirms and extends previous research…. Memory recovery appears to be a robust and frequent phenomenon.”

“Recall of childhood trauma: A prospective study of women’s memories of child sexual abuse.” Williams, Linda Meyer U New Hampshire, Family Research Lab, Durham, US Journal of Consulting & Clinical Psychology 1994 Dec Vol 62(6) 1167-1176

In a study of 129 women “with previously documented histories of sexual victimization” A large proportion of the women (38%) did not recall the abuse that had been reported 17 years earlier.” Women younger in age when abused and women “molested by someone they knew were more likely to have no recall of the abuse…Long periods with no memory of abuse should not be regarded as evidence that the abuse did not occur.”

“Recovered memories of abuse among therapy patients: A national survey.” Pope, Kenneth S.; Tabachnick, Barbara G. Independent practice, Norwalk, CT, US Ethics & Behavior 1995 Vol 5(3) 237248, “According to the therapists, about 50% of the patients who claimed to have recovered the memories had found external validation, a percentage that coincides with that obtained in the Feldman-Summers & Pope, 1994 study”


The following poems are from subscribers. Please use caution while reading. They may be triggering.


There are all kinds of war; There’s a war of words,
a war of feelings, and a lot of other kinds of war.

But the worst kind of war is the war
for the Souls of little Children. The followers of Satan are trying to steal their souls by abusing small, helpless Children, and by telling them that
if they don’t do what they say, that God will not love them anymore.

But there are survivors of this awful war
Who are helping or trying to help by saying it is okay to speak out, That God does love them,
and what these awful people say are nothing but lies.




How can I describe it?
It’s a tornado, a nuclear blast toxic rage a black fire that gives no light but only consumes.
Rage at the pain, betrayal and violation and the evil they served.
Rage at their sadistic ways and at being called crazy and not being believed.

This is what they left us with. Rage at the denial of us and the reason we’re here and at backlash groups who rob us of support.
Rage at being threatened with the hospital when we came out and at them triggering
us into a crisis before Halloween when in high school.
Frieda the fearless was the one they could not touch, but inside was flood and terror, spin and switch.
Rage at the room without windows where they tie people down in the hospital, so much like the hole in the ground they put me in cold and dark and bound hand and foot.

Never again!

Marianne of Lisa’s system


The following letter came from a subscriber. Please use caution while reading. It may be triggering. The letter has been edited for clarity, length and legal reasons. All accusations are alleged.

Dear Mr. Brick; 7/20/99

I am a victim of covert, inhumane, calculated harassment and experimentation techniques since 1990. I am a 38 year old woman, who at the beginning of my fight to protect my son from alleged sexual abuse by his father, began to experience strange phenomenon in my life. I’ll sum it up quickly; at three and a half years old, I believe my child was taken from me by the government. In order to do this, Children and Youth Service records and documents had to be fabricated and even altered. Upon attempting to fight this legally, I was then told all records had been expunged. By this time, it didn’t matter to them to have a child abuse file on me any longer as my child was now living with whom I believe to be his abuser, his father. The “goal” was fulfilled.

Despite petitioning the courts at least six times to get my son back, I have NEVER been given a hearing, EVER. My last petition was filed over three years ago. To date, no hearing has yet been scheduled.

It was not until approximately nine months ago, however, that I learned, through the Internet, exactly what was happening to me, AND TO MY SON. Finally, all the pieces fit like a puzzle.

Every six months, my child’s father reported me to Children’s Services with false claims of child abuse. All reports came back “unfounded,” however, the stress of being “investigated” every six months for seven years was unbearable. With every visitation I got with my son, I watched his mental state and reality deteriorate.

Finally, in August of 1997, I allege my son’s father badly beat my boy, front and back, and marched him into my local police station to have him tell the police that I had done this to him. For once, “dad’s” calculations backfired. When Children’s Services came to the police station and saw it was me, they immediately put me in the clear. Since the same caseworker that investigated me so many times before came to the police station, he knew me, my personality, my character, my parenting, and just about everything he needed to know. He
immediately put me in the clear and began an investigation on the father. I was released from the station and told that, for now, my son would be placed in protective custody. I was sure that finally I was going to get my son back and he’d finally be freed from his abuse. I called the police station every hour to find out where they’d placed my son. They kept telling me to call back because they were still questioning my son and his father. Finally, when I called and got an answer to WHERE they had placed my son, I was told that he was sent home with his father. I have not seen, nor do I know the whereabouts of my son, since that day!

That is just the tip of the iceberg of my “legal” struggles. The victimization and struggles at home with harassment, audible taped voices speaking to me out of nowhere, the “dreams,” not my own, neighbors turning on me, strangers speaking things in public that I’d said in the privacy of my own home just that day, the strong buzzes directly into my ear, tampering with the T.V. and radio transmissions, and on and on and on, for nine years solid. Additionally, let’s not forget the diagnosis of Multiple Sclerosis in 1993.

I could write a book with several volumes to boot. It’s so difficult to convey in a letter what you’ve seen and lived. You may publish this letter if you wish. You may also edit, or whatever. Please do publish the name of a book, just released in 1998, called “Empower the People, a 7 Step Plan to Overthrow the Conspiracy That Is Stealing Your Money and Freedom,” written by Tony Brown. Perhaps someone else will find it to be as enlightening to all the s___ that’s going down within our government. Mr. Brown has very much concrete and solid information, I wanted to pass it along. Thanks for all your work with the newsletter and exposing the lies.

Sincerely, Linda W.

Mormon Lawsuit Article

This article is from the Beaumont Enterprise, Beaumont, TX, 9/10/93, by Susan Borreson. Please note: all accusations are alleged.

“A Jefferson County woman… filed a lawsuit against the Mormon church, a local bishop and a church member, contending the church member molested her daughter at church and elsewhere, and the bishop did not report it.”

She claims that Ralph Neeley, of the Beaumont congregation of the Church of Latterday Saints repeatedly molested her 7 year old daughter during church services and other places.

In the suit it is stated that the bishop did not tell the police or parents about the assaults Neeley told him about them. Police learned about the allegations when Neeley went to the police and reported them himself.

The lawsuit seeks 35 million dollars in compensatory damages and 50 million in punitive damages. The defendants include Neeley, the bishop and the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter day Saints.

The church claims that the bishop recommend Neeley to get counseling and others asked Neeley to go to the police or they would report him.

In an article from “Molester receives life imprisonment,” by Sonja Garza, 4/12/94, Neeley pleaded guilty to a charge of aggravated sexual assault of a child. He received a life sentence and will be eligible for parole in 15 years. He also admitted to having sexual contact with a child in Arkansas 20 years ago.

Linda Walker compiled research on this case and found the evidence that held the Mormon church accountable to the victim. For more information about civil lawsuits against the Mormons: go to
Book Review

The following book review was sent to us by a subscriber. Please use caution, it may be triggering. All accusations are alleged. “Paperclip Dolls – One Survivor’s Story of Remembering and Healing”

If you are familiar with the movie Conspiracy Theory, imagine a story that goes behind the scenes to the character played by Mel Gibson (Jerry) to his childhood as an unwitting subject in the CIA’s top secret project, MKUltra. Paperclip Dolls, would tell you how Jerry most likely became the paranoid adult unable to remember his past and obsessed with government conspiracies.

“Paperclip Dolls” might be described as a thriller involving covert government operations, mind control experimentation with children, Nazi scientists who were ushered clandestinely into the United States following World War II, and a bizarre plot to develop the ultimate secret weapon, a Manchurian Candidate a spy/assassin/courier who would not remember his or her deeds. The story, however, is nonfiction.

It’s the account of a woman who, at age 44, not only begins to remember a childhood she never knew existed, but also realizes she has multiple personalities as a result of her childhood trauma. She must learn to deal with the horrific memories while adjusting to the miraculous way her brain works and has protected her for years.

“Paperclip Dolls” is Annie McKenna’s story about healing from the horror of being placed into what she believes was a government program she knew as Project Monarch at birth by her father who was military intelligence.

The book is her personal account as relayed through her journaling, supportive research, and other writings of exactly how her memories revealed themselves, their impact on her life, and how she was able to quickly understand and gain control of her multiplicity. It is a story about overcoming a most insidious type of child abuse, one that she believes was sanctioned by our own government and which was made public in the 70’s. What the public didn’t know was, it is believed by some, that many of the unwitting subjects of mind control experiments, including the notorious MKUltra project, were children.

The book is available for $22 plus $4 shipping and handling. Orders can be mailed to Annie McKenna, P.O. Box 126251, Harrisburg, PA 17112. Please allow 4 to 6 weeks for delivery. Write [email protected] for further information.


Please note: Listing of these resources does not necessarily constitute our endorsement of them. They are for educational value only and some may be triggering.

Please also note. Some of the conferences listed may not necessarily be safe for all survivors. S.M.A.R.T. recommends always bringing a support person to all conferences. If you are a survivor of mind control and/or ritual abuse, S.M.A.R.T. recommends that you try to bring a support person that is familiar with mind control techniques.

Pro-survivor list (an Emailing list group) will help provide information for survivors of ritual abuse and mindcontrol. This is a prosurvivor list. All posts should be written to help survivors heal. This is not a list for skeptics or those that do not believe in the existence of mind control or ritual abuse. To register, send a paragraph as to why you would like to join to: [email protected] and register at:

ACHES-MC now has chat rooms and a message board on Delphi. At This may be triggering for some survivors, so please use caution.

7th National Linkup Conference, September 36, 1999, Chicago, IL. Sponsored by Linkup, Survivors of Clergy Sexual Abuse Inc., The Linkup, 1412 W. Argyle St #2, Chicago, IL 60640, E-mail: [email protected], http://, 773-334-2296.

“Catholic Pedophile Priests, The Effect on U.S. Society” by Tom Economus is at: The article estimates that 6.1 to 16.3 percent of Roman Catholic Priests may be pedophiles.

“The Ultimate Challenge – a revolutionary, sane and sensible response to ritualistic and cult related abuse,” by Gale Woodsum, director of a non-profit organization that annually served 10,000 victims and survivors of child sexual abuse, 40% of which endured what she would categorize as ritualistic or cult related abuse. The book includes sections or excerpts about the KKK, FMSF, programming, memory recall and safety. For info.: Action Resources International, P O Box 536, Laramie, WY 82073

From: “Kingston Mormon Polygamist 10 Years for Incest,” By Ray Rivera 7/10/99, The Salt Lake Tribune. All crimes are alleged.

“David Ortell Kingston was convicted of having sex with his 16-year-old niece” (his 15th wife) and was sentenced to 2 “consecutive terms of 0 to 5 years” in prison and fined $10,000. The judge “condemned the incestuous practices of the Kingston clan.”

Kingston, was a member of the 1,000-member clan, called the Latter Day Church of Christ in the Salt Lake Valley, “is the most secretive and affluent of Utah’s halfdozen organized polygamous sects,” with approximately an $150 million business empire. The Salt Lake Tribune printed in the past several examples of Kingston leaders marrying related family members as part of their beliefs. “…His brother, John Daniel Kingston, who is the girl’s father, pleaded no contest to child abuse… was sentenced to 7 months in Box Elder County jail for severely beating his daughter when she attempted to flee her arranged marriage to her

According to the article, most polygamous groups claim they don’t allow incest and disagree with those that claim it occurs often.

Information on Mormon and Mormon offshoot groups and legal case studies are available at:

Information on the Mormons from a survivor is available at: (also 83 and 80)

“Trial for torture death of toddler set to begin in Salt Lake City,” Edmonton Canada Journal (CP) July 12,’99 L8,, By Carol Harrington: Canada Press. The accused may be LDS church members.

Please use a great deal of caution at this website and connected ones. Descriptions of rituals and degrees are at http://www., Notes from… “The Book of the Ancient and Accepted Scottish Rite of Freemasonry: Containing Instructions in All the Degrees, from the Third to the Thirty-third, and Last Degree of the Rite” by Charles T. McClenachan, 33′ (Revised and Enlarged Edition, Macoy Publishing and Masonic Supply Company, 4549 John St., New York, 1914). University of Delaware Library, HS 770.M3 1914

Please use caution at this site. It maybe triggering. From ~rshand/streams/masons/mrituals.html This web site discusses: Freemasonry – A Journey through Ritual and Symbol, Masonic Beliefs and Practices, Initiation Into the Lodge, The Symbolism of the Lodge, and the degrees. William T. Still, author of “New World Order” claims: “…The Shrine spent only 29.8 percent of its 1984 income on its program services, compared with 84 percent by the American Red Cross, 67.2 percent by the American Cancer Society, 70.6
percent by the American Heart Association and 73 percent by National Easter Seals. In fact, no other charity in the top fourteen listed by the IRS gave less than 57 percent of their total income to their program services almost twice as much as the Shrine.”

“Why Albert Pike’s Statue Must Fall – The Scottish Rite’s KKK Project,” by Anton Chaitkin is at The author believes that: “The Ku Klux Klan, the Southern Confederacy, and the pre-Civil War secession movement were a single, continuous project, with Pike’s “Scottish Rite” at its center.” …Albert Pike, who was the Grand Dragon of the Ku Klux Klan in Arkansas.” “Freemasonry was founded in the early 1700s in England by the socalled Venetian Party. This clique of British philosophical liberals had a few other experiments in human misery, for example: the East India Company, the royal African Company of slavers, and the slave colony of South Carolina.””The Scottish Rite was formally organized in the U.S.A. in 1801, as a group of Tory partisans on the losing side of the American Revolution…”

A survivor is looking for other alleged Masonic survivors from Georgia including Gainsville, Atlanta and Jacksonville, FL areas. The years would be from the mid 1950’s through the 60’s. Please send any information you may have to SMART with postage and we will forward it. Please use caution when contacting anyone mentioned in this newsletter.

John Moreno (member of president’s Advisory Committee on Human Radiation Experiments) is writing a book about unethical experimentation called “Undue Risk.” The following information is from Philip J. Hilts article “A History: When the State Uses People as Guinea Pigs,” New York Times, 7/13/99, p. F2 His “book traces the history of secret, state-sponsored experiments in the fields of atomic, chemical and biological warfare studies from World War II to the present.”

From “The Unabomber: A Volunteer In CIA Mindcontrol Experiments,” By ALEXANDER COCKBURN L A Times, 7/6/99, the author believes that Theodore Kaczynski, a.k.a. the Unabomber, was a volunteer in mindcontrol experiments sponsored by the CIA at Harvard in the late 1950’s and early 1960’s (1958 to 1962) this information is from Michael Mello, author of “The United States of America vs. Theodore John Kaczynski,” The article claims the researcher was Dr. Henry Murray, who worked at one time for the Office of Strategic Services (CIA’s predecessor).

Information on the CIA/Canada case is at It discusses the case of Orlikow, et al. v. United States, a litigation for the Canadian victims of CIA brainwashing experiments. “The payment of nearly a million dollars to the CIA’s victims by the governments of the United States and Canada” because of the federal suit.

Please use caution while reading this. It may be triggering. “Mind Control Slavery and The New World Order” by Uri Dowbenko, c 1998, has information on Project Paperclip (Nazi research in the US), the Monarch program, Illuminati Mind Control, etc. The article is available from Nexus, FebMarch 99 or U. Dowbenko, New Improved Entertainment Corp., P O Box 43, Pray, MT, 59065, E-mail: [email protected] Please use caution when contacting any resource mentioned in this newsletter.

“The False Memory Debate: Social Science or Social Backlash,” Judith L. Herman and Mary R. Harvey, /mag1/p5hmem3.html

“The Body Keeps the Score: Memory and the evolving psychobiology of post traumatic stress,” by Bessel van der Kolk,

“The Highly Misleading Truth and responsibility in Mental Health Pratices Act: The “False Memory” Movement’s Remedy for a Nonexistent Problem,” by Judith M. Simon,

“Archive of News Reports and Ritual Murder Cases and Appellate Documentation of Ritual and Satanic Cases at: /~Curio_5_/ra.htm

“Lost in a Shopping Mall A Breach of Professional Ethics,” Crook and Dean, (see Issue #27 for info) has an article by Michele Landsberg, Toronto Star, 11/13/93, called “False Memory Label Invented by Lobby Group.”

A D. C. Hammond interview from a FMSF newsletter is available at

There are a variety of excellent articles for survivors and lawyers at: and resources.html

“Cultural and Economic Barriers to Protecting Children from Ritual Abuse and Mind Control,” Catherine Gould, Ph.D. Dec. 1995,

Here are some quotes:

“Among 2,709 members of the American Psychological Association who responded to a poll, 2,292 cases of ritual abuse were reported (Bottoms, Shaver, & Goodman, 1993). …Childhelp USA logged 1,741 calls pertaining to ritual abuse, … Real Active Survivors tallied nearly 3,600, Justus Unlimited of Colorado received almost 7,000, and Looking Up of Maine handled around 6,000.”

“Evidence also continues to accumulate that the ritual abuse of children constitutes a child abuse problem of significant scope.” (Studies and numbers are listed.)

“Finkelhor, Williams and Burns (1988) …substantiated reports of sexual abuse …involving 1,639 … child victims…” Other reports of possible ritual abuse include: Kelly (1988; 1989; 1992a; 1992b; 1993) 35 day care victims, Waterman et al.(1993) 82 children, Faller (1988; 1990) 18 children, Bybee and Mowbray(1993) 62 children, 53 children seeing others being ritually abused, Snow and Sorenson (1990) 39 children reporting ritual abuse, in Utah, and Jonker and Jonker-Bakker(1991) 48 victims of ritual abuse.” “..58% of the ritual abuse cases in the Finkelhor (1988) study that went to trial resulted in convictions. In the Kelly (1992b) study, convictions were obtained in 80% of the ritual and sexual abuse cases combined.” “convictions were obtained in 11% of all ritual child abuse cases studied by Bottoms et al. (1991; 1993).”

An excellent article called, “The Battle for Your Mind,” by Dick Sutphen, “Persuasion and Brainwashing Techniques Being Used on the Public Today,” is at

Part of “The Search for the Manchurian Candidate” by John Marks, is at

Tape Order Form for The Second Annual Ritual Abuse, Secretive Organizations and Mind Control Conference 1999

Some of the topics discussed on these tapes may be very triggering. These tapes are educational
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#1 Neil Brick “Conference trigger management and safety”

#2 “A Survivor’s Journey of Healing.”

#3 Jeanette Westbrook “Getting Justice In an Unjust System.”

#4 Annie McKenna “Healing From the Horror (what has worked for me)”

#5 K. Sullivan “Perpetrator alterstates: letting go of the guilt”

#6 deJoly LaBrier “Transformation from Victim to Survivor What it Takes.”

#7 Mary Jo Schneller “Training for Therapists for Survivors with Mind Control.”

#8 Brice Taylor “Ritual Abuse and Mind Control: The Bigger Picture. Where do we go from

#9 Helen L. McGonigle, Esq. “The legal system’s treatment of ritual abuse and mind control cases”

#10 Jo “The History/Development of the Concept of Evil in the Sacred Scriptures of Many
Religious Traditions.”

#11 Hal Pepinsky “How he brings the voices of survivors of ritual violence and mind control experimentation into his classes”

#12 Anna Richardson (a pseudonym) “Understanding and Coping with Ritual Abuse Memories.”

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Speakers and Biographies

Listing of these speakers does not necessarily constitute our endorsement of them. They spoke at our conference for educational value only and some may be triggering. Listening to the speakers at the conference may or may not help your recovery process, so use caution when listening to any speaker or contacting any resource mentioned herein.

Neil Brick is a survivor of alleged Masonic Ritual Abuse. He is the editor of S.M.A.R.T. A Ritual Abuse Newsletter. He has published numerous articles on ritual abuse. He discussed conference trigger management and safety.

Jo is a survivor. She has a Master’s Degree in Special Education. She is on a spiritual path and is a Cheraga (minister) in the Sufi Order of the West. She has developed a memorial garden and is currently writing a book about what it is like to be a multiple. She discussed “The History/Development of the Concept of Evil in the Sacred Scriptures of Many Religious Traditions.”

deJoly LaBrier, author of “Diary of a Survivor in Art and Poetry,” comes from a Marine Corps family. She lives in St. Petersburg, Florida and speaks openly about being multiple. She has presented her work on TV, radio and to art therapists and psychological associates and the general public. She talked about the “Transformation from Victim to Survivor What it Takes.”

Helen L. McGonigle, Esq. has been a practicing attorney since 1986. She is a member of the American Bar Association, Association of Trial Lawyers of America, Connecticut Bar Association and Connecticut Trial Lawyers Association. Attorney McGonigle was the plaintiff’s lawyer in the landmark case Borawick vs. Shay. She discussed the legal system’s treatment of ritual abuse and mind control cases.

Annie McKenna spoke about: “Healing From the Horror (what has worked for me)” She is an alleged survivor of Project Monarch, a government mind control program involving the military, various intelligence agencies, and the Nazi’s ushered into the U.S. under Operation Paperclip. Project Monarch was used to create a multiple personalities. She owes her rapid healing and integration process to a strong cooperative system and scrapbook therapy.

Hal Pepinsky teaches criminal justice at Indiana University. He teaches a seminar on children’s rights and safety, which includes materials and guest presentations on ritual violence by survivors and their supporters. Hal described how he brings the voices of survivors of ritual violence and mind control experimentation into his classes.

Anna Richardson (a pseudonym) is the author of “Double Vision: A Travelogue of Recovery from Ritual Abuse.” She holds a Master’s in English Literature from Cambridge University. A survivor herself, she lives happily in Western, Massachusetts designing gardens, writing and teaching creative writing. She spoke about “Understanding and Coping with Ritual Abuse Memories.”

Mary Jo Schneller is the director of the South County Christian Counseling Center. She has been actively educating the public about the connection between satanic ritual abuse, mind control and the Masonic connection. She spoke about “Training for Therapists for Survivors with Mind Control.”

K. Sullivan is the founder of PARCVRAMC, a grassroots organization dedicated to helping RA and MC survivors find personal healing. She spoke about “Perpetrator alter-states: letting go of the guilt”

Brice Taylor is a survivor of intergenerational ritual abuse and alleged government mind control. She is the author of “Starshine: One Woman’s Valiant Escape from Mind Control.” She holds a Bachelor’s Degree in Psychology, and is a member of the L.A. Women’s Ritual Abuse Task Force. She has been interviewed on television
and radio. She discussed “Ritual Abuse and Mind Control: The Bigger Picture. Where do we go from here?”

Jeanette Westbrook, MSSW, CSW works with victims of ritual crime and mind control, is a survivor of ritual based mind control which she believes involved Mormons, Masons and high ranking local officials. She has pursued criminal prosecution of some of her perpetrators. She has served on the Ky. Attorney Generals’ Task Force on Child Sexual Abuse. She spoke about “Getting Justice In an Unjust System.”

VII. Nov 15, 2008 Let the truth be known (Grace aka Annie McKenna)

For the first few years of my recovery, I journaled my trauma as it oozed from my subconscious as well as my healing process. What surfaced was a world I never knew existed. I’ve spoken of healing through collages. I have several trunks full of collages and research and drawings and doodles and scribblings. I gave a short presentation at the 1998 SMART conference on “scrapbook therapy” and how it could benefit healing as well as internal communication. I gave a longer presentation at the 1999 SMART conference. It was also at that time I had completed my book Paperclip Dolls documenting my healing to that point. My pen name and survivor name was Annie McKenna.

It’s safe to say I really didn’t know who I was at the time memories came up that included such government programs as Operation Paperclip ( and MK-Ultra ( I found numerous survivors online with the same type of memories. I was deathly afraid of seeking a therapist who would be safe because of the content of my surfacing story. Becoming a psychotherapist didn’t become a thought in my mind until 2000. I was able to enter a grad school counseling program in summer 2001. I made the transition from the world of what has been dubbed conspiracy theory to functionally healed survivor entering a new life chapter in a new career.

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In hindsight, I realize how focused I was on the unbelievability of my own memories and researching for hours a day only to find continued validation rather than information negating the memories that came from my murky dissociated past. Now that I’m beyond integration with much slowed new memory content and many resolved triggers, I realize now it doesn’t matter what happened to me–only that I healed. But dealing with the memory content is, I believe, a stage of healing requiring focus to understand the breadth and intensity of the abuse.

I have been living in fear of having been Annie McKenna and now living my life as Grace the psychotherapist-blogger-writer-advocate. Last night I completed my application to the Obama Transition Project. I wanted to no longer have to hide that I was Annie McKenna. The new presidency is about openness. I shouldn’t have had to feel shame about my history, but having had DID is still not completely accepted in my own profession, although it’s the focus of treatment for my professional colleagues. Therapists who are also survivors mostly stay in the shadows so we can do the work we want to help others through that difficult healing journey.

For the first time ever, a professional organization of therapists who work with clients with DID, has opened discussion of the world of ritual and government abuse, both with the common denominator of organized pedophilia. For a therapist to speak of ritual abuse or government mind control has been taboo. Major strides have been made in the past few years. A presentation by professional colleagues was given to the United Nations to highlight the torturous methods used by groups of pedophiles to create dissociation. This is known to be a worldwide issue.

After 11 years of healing and living in both worlds, I still can’t say what really happened to me other than a sh*tload of trauma. I know certain things were very real while other details are fuzzy. I was led to so much information about government abuse of its own citizens that I could not believe in anything political. I am aware of officials in my local government and/or agencies that have at least one person protecting the secrets of organized pedophilia. It is my hope that, under the new presidency, there might be a commission or task force to address these layers of government with the secrets as well as redirect the focus for survivors of abuse to safely report known “cult” activity and seek help. It would also require that health insurance companies be mandated to cover the more intense therapy needed for a survivor to heal from DID, and a new way for all of law enforcement and other helping agencies to view dissociation and work with victims of sophisticated abuse.

I want to be part of that change. The reason you don’t see other therapists jumping on the bandwagon with this issue is that careers could be at stake. I’m in a place right now where my career is on hold and I can advocate from my home. I want it to be okay to be me to include my first few years of healing.

My book is no longer available although I’m going to try to make it available through Kindle. The SMART website still sells cassette tapes of each presentation from each SMART conference if anyone is interested. I don’t benefit from sales. I’ve spoken in the Forbidden Topic blog about most techniques for which I gave presentations. What I have avoided in the blog are details about government and other key words that tend to cause the greater public to immediately dismiss the survivor. I am a survivor of that crap. I lived to heal. I lived to help others heal. And now I would like to be part of the change–to be proud of my country and my government once again.

Photo: My “nursery school” graduation photo. My mother has no recollection of my having been at nursery school, nor does my older sister. She was age 6 when I was 3. Look at the size of the diploma. Where are the other children? Why is “no one home” in my expression? Why is it a dirty area? Where was I when my mother thought I was in nursery school? If you look at the photo in enlarged detail, you can see the bruises under my lip and the blood on my lips. My mother always showed me that picture describing it as nursery school when she used to show it to me. Part of my manufactured childhood.
Posted by Unknown at 11/15/2008 10:22:00 PM
Labels: collages, McKenna, MK-Ultra, Operation Paperclip, Paperclip Dolls, S.M.A.R.T., scrapbook therapy, Smart

Anonymous said…

You do look so empty in that picture. You look as if what you hold in your hand means nothing….

Sending hugs….
Secret Shadows
Nov 16, 2008, 10:05:00 AM
Shamai said…

Only just found your blog while looking for your book. Looking forward to it coming out in Kindle. I’m still around. Please keep in touch
Nov 9, 2011, 7:15:00 AM
Unknown said…

Hi Shamai, Plans in the works for making Paperclip Dolls available on Kindle. No goal date though. Thanks for thinking of me ♥
Nov 11, 2011, 11:06:00 PM
Ashley said…

Looking for your book. Many Prayers and Blessings be with you. God is an Amazing God and can heal all that was broken. You are certainly in my prayers!
Mar 26, 2012, 4:52:00 PM
Anonymous said…

The picture on this page is not you, is that right? I know someone who claims this is her and remembers the photo being taken. She grew up in a mormon family.
Jul 10, 2012, 8:13:00 PM
Unknown said…

Dear Anonymous, That is me. People who knew me when I was that age recognized me when I was in my 20s but hadn’t seen me in between (military base). It was taken in Germany where we lived since before age 2 until about age 5. I started kindergarten in the U.S. The original photo has the scalloped edges…photo taken in 1955. Anyone can claim anything, I guess. Don’t understand why someone would want to claim this as being them. Lots of things I don’t understand in this world.
Jul 10, 2012, 8:32:00 PM
Unknown said…

@Silvershoes I am not Grace from Arizona and this is not your photograph. My photograph is stamped with the German film developer and 1955 on the back. Now please stop harrassing me.
Oct 10, 2012, 4:15:00 PM